Tuesday, July 28, 2015

D Day

Day 7- Tuesday, July 28  Today has been a good day! Not a completely back to normal day, not as active I am normally, but MUCH better than yesterday. I took meds before bed last night and then I woke up at 5 and took some more. I had made the decision to lay on my back to sleep last night. Bad idea! It's a lot longer distance to sitting from laying flat. So after I laid there in bed feeling like a turtle on its back, I finally managed to get up and go to the bathroom and take medicine. I had to eat something though, because I was hungry and didn't need to take meds on an empty stomach. I ended up waking up J, since he thought something might be wrong since I was standing in the kitchen eating applesauce. I laid back down until LC got up around 7:30-7:45. I got up with her and loaded the dishwasher. I had decided last night that I needed to eat better and maybe that would help me feel better. So, it may be unconventional, but I had tilapia, rice, and asparagus leftovers from last week for breakfast. I was still a little groggy so I laid down while LC played on the ipad. I got back up around 11. I took a shower and got dressed. We left and went to Walmart, to return library books, and to drop something off in town. We also ran by Chick-fil-a for some lunch. It was the first time I have driven since last Tuesday. I drove the Tahoe in case my reflexes were slow. I had to steer in really weird, small little turns, but I did fine. It was really tiring especially the walking in the store, but I did OK. I took two small muscle relaxers from when I injured my shoulder and laid down for a while after lunch, but I barely slept. This is a major accomplishment because when I lay down I am usually out! I stayed mostly awake while LC took a nap. Jack helped me gather the dirty laundry and I washed 3 loads and got them dried. I even cooked a very simple supper since I was starving and J wouldn't be home anytime soon. My boobs are slightly lower today, but still VERY firm. My incisions are not hurting at all and my steri strips are starting to loosen up. I still feel like my stomach is bigger than it should be. Not sure what that is, or if it is just the effects of not exercising in a week. I got a bigger front close bra today and it was a lifesaver! My other one just must be too little. I can't breathe when I wear it. This one is much better and I wore it while laying down and sitting which is pretty uncomfortable in the other bra I was using.

Day 6- Monday, July 27   Today was possibly the worst day I have had since my surgery. It was less physical pain and more mental. It was the first full day with the kids back. So, being a responsible person, I thought it best to not be doped up all day. So I took one of my pain pills at 8am and that was it for the day. Well, they make me loopy and sleepy. I laid down for awhile and the kids were watching a movie. Well, Jack greeted me with "well, how was your 4 hour nap?" when I reemerged from the bedroom. So basically I felt like crap. So I didn't take anything else during the day. I felt awful though. By the time J showed up I was in tears, not really from pain, but from just not being able to do anything! I am not driving yet, which sucks and I am still having some problems with double vision. It is one of the last weeks before the kids go back to school and I can't even go to the pool! I have to say, I might be bowing up to try this one. I just need to find a bathing suit that will fit.

Day 5- Sunday, July 26 J called from TN and woke me up around 7:30.  I was waiting until 8 to take any more meds and it could not come quick enough! Very full and painful feeling this morning, my incisions were burning, especially the right side! although the act of going from a lying position to a sitting one is much easier. I laid back down after breakfast for a while, since my time off is about over. Then I got up and decided I needed to look a little better for the kids.  I put on my bra, regular clothes, brushed my teeth and hair, and even did some chores around the house. I went downstairs and got myself a frozen pizza. I unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher. I have been taking Colace since Thursday and I finally went to the bathroom today. I was beginning to wonder how long it would be! A little TMI, but these are things I didn't find out until I was going through it!!! I still have a poochy stomach. I guess it is fluid and stuff, but I am ready for it to go away. I can't exercise yet and and I'm  hungry all the time and this is not helping!

Day 4- Saturday, July 25-  I slept ok last night. I took another shower before bed and that makes me feel better. I was able to get most of the clear bandage pulled off and J helped me get the rest of it off. It was uncomfortable pulling it off, but it was wet and needed to come off. My incisions were red but I think that was from the adhesive from the bandage. My incisions are itching today, so maybe that means I am healing. I am still very swollen and sore. Breasts are still very hard. I really hope they can begin to soften soon because right now they are like rocks. I have been trying to breathe deeply to keep from getting pneumonia and have coughed a little. It hurts! I have been having some double vision since day 1 or 2, that is better today.. I would like to kick the gal at the surgeon's office in the teeth who said "I had a super bowl party at my house 2 days after my surgery". That is BS. I can function on a basic level and that is about it. My kids will be home tomorrow, at least 2 of the 3, and I am dreading it! Right now, I only have to take care of myself and the house is clean and quiet. Tomorrow, that will not be the case. Let's all pray LC can be controlled. I ended up making chocolate oatmeal cookies tonight. Obviously, the hunger and itching are still an issue and I decided to skip one of my doses of medicine to help get rid of some of that. I stayed up until 12:30 am to take what would be my last dose. I wore my bra for an hour two different times today. Jeremy was down in TN picking up 2 of our kids and so I was on my own all day today. I showered and even wore one of J's t-shirts to bed tonight.  It is the first time I haven't worn a button up shirt all day and night since my surgery. I also, waxed my eyebrows, which by the looks of one of them, was a bad idea! I am still massaging them a little with some lotion at night, taking deep breaths several times a day,  and stretching my arms above my head. Getting out of bed is getting easier.

Day 3- Friday, July 24- I am still taking all my meds and have been very foggy and sleepy today. I am also itchy which is supposed to be a side effect of the narcotics. I am in less pain :)although I am still sore underneath around my incisions. I still haven't gotten the top clear bandage off. It was supposed to be taken off yesterday, but J thinks it looks like it is stuck to the steri strips and was very painful when we tried to take it off yesterday. So we are leaving it be for the time being. I have some firmness in my stomach that  I think is fluid and stuff moving downward. Yesterday it was more around my ribs.  I was running a fever last night (100.4) and that was really worrying me. I do NOT need an infection. My sister has had to take care of my kids for far too long already, much less if I were to have some complications. I called my doctor last night about the fever and he said not to worry unless it gets to 101.5 or above. That was a relief. I haven't felt nauseous or as lightheaded today and I think that is because we have done a better job keeping my meds on schedule and I am eating regularly. I also slept great last night. I think some of the swelling has gone down and there doesn't seem to be much bruising. I am not sure of the size yet though. They are still hard, but I am hoping the soften over time. I have been trying to raise and move my arms and they are less sore today. It is easier to get in and out of bed, which, other than wearing a bra, has been the most painful thing in the whole process. I am glad that J stayed here today. He has been going and buying my coffee and breakfast each morning and that has been something to look forward to. He should be going to TN to pick up the kids tomorrow. I guess they will come back Sunday. I really hate that he has had to do so much driving in the last 2 weeks. He is a really good nurse! I ordered myself a sports bra that fastenes in the front and am wearing that for a while today and it is much more comfortable to get on and off than others you have to put over your head.

Day 2- Thursday, July 23-   The WORST! I started out wrong by trying to get all my meds started at the same time. Bad idea! I hadn't eaten since the night before, no meds, and was trying to sit up for the first time that day. That is always the worst, sitting up for the first time each day. I ended up having to go back to bed because I felt like I was going to pass out, but couldn't get my head between my knees to make myself feel better.  Yesterday I was super sore and very painful. Very swollen, breasts very hard, and trying to wear my sports bra was Ok for a while, but I tried to wear it too long and I nearly cried when we finally took it off. Getting out of bed and coming to a sitting position brought tears to my eyes. J left for a while during the day, and although I thought I felt Ok, I miscalculated my med times and took something when I shouldn't have. I have noticed myself not thinking as clearly. I am not sure if some of the meds cause me to be hungry, but it seems like my stomach is always growling! That was an issue yesterday too, I was hungry and didn't have anything to eat when I should have. Not good! I had lots of muscle spasms around and underneath my breasts yesterday. So much so that the muscle relaxers weren't working. I tried ice packs and that helped a little. I finally took a shower late yesterday afternoon and that made me feel better. J went to Qdoba for us some supper and it was really good.
I had felt flushed and a little warm during the day and last night it was more so. I took my temp around 10 and it was 100.4. I was really worried that it might be a sign of infection, so I called my doctor who reassured me unless it got over 101.5, not to worry. I also asked him if it was OK to leave the clear bandage since it was stuck to my steri strips. He said to just leave it alone if it was stuck. I am supposed to go back for a follow-up on Tuesday, but may try to push that back if I still have pain meds that I am taking. Jeremy is worried about pneumonia since I can't take a deep breath. The doctor alluded to this tonight. So I am going to try and take deep breaths as much as I can.

Day 1 - Wednesday, July 22- D Day!  Today I am having Gummy Bear (410) textured shaped implants placed under the muscle. I should end up with a D cup.
I was SOOOOOO nervous! Scared to death of what all could happen and the effects it could have on my family. I was feeling guilty about my sister having to keep my kids for so long. I was feeling guilty about J not getting a real vacation, but having to play nurse instead. All for something that wasn't medically necessary. I hoped I'd be happy with the results and that everything would go as well as it could. We had to be at Dr. Salzman's office at 6:30 so we left home about 5. I got up around 4:30 and washed and fixed my hair. I couldn't wear makeup so I didn't have to do that. In the days leading up to surgery day I had cleaned my house, caught up on laundry, got all the mowing and weed eating done at both the farm and the house, bought some things for me to snack on, ran errands, and pretty much everything else I could think of. So at least that was a load off my mind. I always look for "signs" and by 6:30 Wednesday morning, I had seen more than I wanted. First of all, we were supposed to ring the doorbell and go through the side door. Well we went to the door at 6:25 and rang the doorbell and rang the doorbell and rang the doorbell! Strike one! Someone finally comes to the door about 6:35-6:40, she said apparently the bell doesn't work every time it is pushed. I go in and get my bracelet and my birthdate is wrong! Strike 2! Then when all the folks that would be involved in the surgery were coming through my room, J asked the nurse the anesthelogist's name and it was doctor so and so. Well, I didn't mention it to him, but when she actually came in, it was a nurse anesthetist. J had made a negative comment about doctors wanting to use them since they were cheaper. I didn't' say anything to J, but strike 3! So I was a mess thinking I should not be doing this! I wanted to go ahead anyway. We had paid for it, took the kids to my sisters, J was off work, and I  wanted bigger boobs. So we did it. J told me a 100 times, you don't have to go through with this, we can still back out. I think he was really nervous too. Around 7:45 they gave me some meds that took the edge off and I barely remember anything after that. I remember Dr. S coming in and marking me.  I remember faintly them pulling my bed out of the room we were in, me scooting over onto a gurney, and that is it until it was all over and J touched my foot as he came back into the room. I woke up to pain in my sternum. I was very out of it but hurting. I took some pain meds before we left the office and I don't remember much about the ride home from Louisville. Later that day we tried putting on a sports bra and that was very uncomfortable. So I got online that night and got me a bra that fastened in the front. I needed something that didn't hurt as much and something I can get in and out of by myself while J is gone. By far, the most painful thing is going from a lying position to sitting. The muscles underneath my breasts are very sore! I took my meds and used my frozen peas on and off all day. I am having some double vision, and can't breath deeply at all.